sugar free

Sugar is my worst nightmare... as well as my best friend. Well, I guess "best" isn't the right adjective, since our relationship is so love/hate.

I am a Class A Sugar Addict. I swear. I am not kidding you.

Hi, my name is Amanda, and I am a sugarholic.

I have faced this problem many times in my life. Like, seriously faced it. Head on. With a take-the-bull-by-the-horns and you-will-own-me-no-longer type of attitude! And at times it's worked out well. I really have a lot of self-control... I just have to choose to use it. I think most of us are like that really.

At any rate, I have come to face the ugly truth again. It was 1 week ago today that I went to visit my brother's girlfriend. Whereupon I wolfed down half a large pizza as well as the most delicious dark chocolate peppermint bar ever. I was full less than half way through this quest, yet I kept eating. Mainly because that delicious sugaryness just kept calling my name. Haunting me almost!

I recall a time when I was leaving work and had planned to go to the gym. There were however, 2 cookies left at my house that I desperately wanted. Instead of doing the rational, reasonable thing which would be go work out and then go eat cookies, I went to eat the cookies plus nothing. I felt like a drug addict! It was a force so strong that I just would NOT say no!

So here I am, facing the ugly truth. This is unfortunately not a situation that can be remedied immediately by moderation. Not for me at least. I had to go cold turkey. I gave up sugar completely 1 week ago and for the first 2 days had a headache, heartburn and extreme tiredness. Oh ya, and an insatiable desire for SUGAR! But hallelujah I have made it to the other side of that. Now it's a little easier to say no, and complete avoidance is a whole lot easier than trying to rationally decide what is ok and what is not. I have 1 more week of abstinence from the white goodness... whereupon I have to make a solid plan of where to go from there.

I initially planned to ONLY eat things that were unrefined. So raw sugar, raw honey etc. However, I know myself all too well and if I don't plan for *some* things that are just plain wrong I will slide down the slippery slope greased with all things chocolate and delicious quickly. I have to see if I can come up with a logical approach to this that has very clear boundaries... because for right now, I just can't be trusted!!!